"You should try to play it in your mind before you go in for exam."
"But i can't!"
"Why?"
"I'll forget it, or play it wrong, i just can't do that imaginery playing thing."
"That's because you are finding perfection.'

I am quite amazed at my unknown desire to strive for perfection, as i accept mistakes quite easily and dosen't feel the kind of drive -you know,grit your teeth and work till you drop-at perfomrning tasks. I then realized i probably wanted very very absolutely, for things to go how i want it to go everytime i perform. Let it be a small thing,like frying my sausages(which i tried and blacken everything), but i still won't let it go without some kind of determination to show them, hey-i can do it!